How come I seem to fall flat on my face after every high?
This is Monday.
Thursday, Friday, Saturday & Sunday I was on a great Spiritual high. I was having great, positive life changing thoughts. What a wonderful interlude.
I decided to do my “aweber” add on to my blog after work. I got started on it, but forgot the “save” button. So I started again. Today, I had my list saved, but needed to get it posted on my blog. Got Davene’s instructions open and started. Got my aweber and blog opened. Listen to Davene for a few minute, go to aweber and follow instructions, back to the instructions, flip to aweber, I should get this done soon. Then…
I had one disaster after another, programs locked up and I even ended up hard booting my computer! Then the negative thoughts started, NO I WON’T THINNK THAT! So, I didn’t but I got a stomach ache. NO I WON’T THINK THAT, I WILL NOT CRY! Success, I didn’t cry. I CAN DO ALL THINGS….. I will not go home until I get this done, with that my mind refocused, I took a deep breath and tried again. I got it done, I would love to say it is right, but after 2 hours, it has a mistake. Somehow I have my offer sentence in there twice – but there is tomorrow.
It takes persistence in positive thoughts to not to succumb to the old thoughts. It takes your mental diet pill, it is hard work, it can be a struggle, but it can be done.
While feeling like I just did battle with a giant, I also feel like I gained a victory over myself and circumstances. I decided to choose my thoughts and not let them rule me.
I defeated my giant.